My husband lost his job on Dec. 8th of this past year. It’s been really nice having him home during the day. I don’t feel lonely and if I need to run out to the store, I can go by myself. It’s been nice having our long, midday chats too. Although, I know it’s hard for him to have lost his job and have to go through the demands of finding a new one, I have to say that selfishly, it’s been kind of nice having him around. On the other hand, I feel like we are in an unknown limbo. Lots of questions swirl in my mind and I wonder how long we will be living off unemployment. I trust God, and believe my husband does too. It’s not easy, but God has been our Provider. He has used people to reach out to us~my parents and friends from church~I am so thankful for these relationships!
Since he’s been off work, my husband agreed to help a friend out with his cleaning business temporarily. This means, he is gone Monday through Friday nights which means I get to put all 4 kiddies to bed by myself. I used to love the help Joe gave at bedtime. For some parents, it is probably the time of most bonding with their kids, but for me it’s been a struggle. I am trying, by God’s grace, to learn the art of taking t-i-m-e to spend with them at bedtime, but by the time 8 pm comes, I’m ready to say goodnight and close the doors. I’ve had to learn not to rush the routine though I still do much of the time. Some nights, especially when I do it alone, I’m just so tired! Tonight, as I was tredging up the stairs in the process of getting the younger two ready, I remembered James Dobson’s wise advise that said good parenting was worth all the blood, sweat, and tears that it took. I need to be reminded of this all.the.time! They say, the moments seem long, but the years are short. I know this already to be true, how much more when they have spread their wings and no longer can I tuck them in, will I have wished I had spent those moments lingering with them.