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I Knew There Was A Reason I Liked to Blog… 03/13/2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — Journey of Faith @ 8:44 am

I was whisked off to a Ladies Retreat this past weekend after a very emotional day (more on that emotional day to come). Later I realized I had forgotten to pack pj’s and my contact case and solution, very  important things. My sweet roommate ended up borrowing me pj bottoms and I was able to purchase the contact solution and case in the resort store.

The night we arrived and were sitting at our table of friends with desserts piling high on our plates, I was telling the story of how my husband got an offer on a job (again, more on that happy news soon).  I was telling my Pastor’s wife the story because she has been such a friendly, concerned lady since they’ve come to our church nearly 3 years ago. She’s been asking so I thought I’d share the good news with her. However, when I was done, she asked me if I would share it with the group of Ladies at the retreat in the morning. I was a little hesitant, but figured I would, why not? Well, that didn’t leave me much time to plan what I would say to a room full of ladies that I admire. There was a lot involved in the different jobs he’d been offered and the timing and the way we went from anxiously awaiting and discouraged to happy all in one day. I didn’t know how I would tell it all straight so I wrote it all out that morning before our buffet breakfast. When I got up to share, I began to read and not having done it that way before, it felt unnatural so I started to just tell it, then I lost my place and when I wanted to read  it again, I couldn’t. I felt like my words were jumbled  and there was no emotion behind my words just nervous talk. Talk about humbling. Why couldn’t it just have been a quick, praise to God for Him finding my husband a job? One he wanted. Makes me realize even more why I so enjoy this cozy, little corner of my room where I can type and, now, I’m keeping my husband awake with the tapping of the keys so I’ll have to cut this short. The ladies were so gracious afterwards to thank me and want to know more. (:

God didn’t make me a public speaker. Sometimes, I wish he did because I admire those ladies that can get up and speak with such grace and composure. Saturday morning was humbling yes, but should I focus on this human frailty of mine, I will not grow as He intended me to do in allowing this into my life. There have been better “speeches” and this was not one of them. Thank you, Lord for again showing me another of my weaknesses so you can come and fill those “wounds” and be my everything.


5 Responses to “I Knew There Was A Reason I Liked to Blog…”

  1. Oh, yikes. Sounds like a Moses moment. Really, Lord, you don’t have anyone better skilled to talked to Pharoah???

    Most importantly, you were willing. Now, I’m always willing to talk… I can talk right through an entire ladies’ conference. So, now I’m blessed with crying my way through any tiny little blessing or prayer request. Does get me to quiet down a little faster.

    But while this experience was tough for you (and I’m totally waiting to hear about this job thing), just like Moses–you have no idea what God do with your obedient steps. Maybe He has another blogger He wants putting her heart out in cyberspace, hmmm?

  2. Well, I’ll take all the prayers I can get, of course. But I’m still too me-focused, I think, to be journaling in cyberspace. I’ve about warn out my friends around here talking about me… and given that I had a great typing teacher and my brain is on Rx’s… well, I’m afraid I could wear out the bloggo-sphere fast.

  3. you’re funny! I think you can do more private blogs and who knows if you enjoy it, maybe it would be theraputic. (:

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